No Preparation

this is my marriage. i have just done that and no one know, how o felt. its just like.. hm.. no..not a 'dream comes true'. this is disaster. frankly, i hate my situation right now. no one know, no one understand me. and from now on, i becoming hate myself. i really hate myself. ugh. and no one can feel me.

back to my husband. he is a selfish man. egicentric. cant understand me. and always think about himself. you know what he said to me when i am myself has plan to have a baby? "aborted it" gosh!! CRUEL...

we both just a kid. we are not grow enough to face this situation. i am 22 and he is 21. wow!! how young. i am not arguing myself right now, i am blame myself. i am not qualified enough. i am not too smart to face a problem like this. ugh...