I have married

"never tell anyone untill the right time" thats what my husband said.
he still at college now, first year.. hehe72x, and me? i have graduated. yeah, i am older than him, but, its not a big deal. if you ask about love? no.. i dont think i love him. i just need him. to hugh me, kiss me and give me what i want. cruel? i dont think so. i am not so cruel then him.

21st december 2009, i married him. no party. no yelling, just ordinary 'ijab kabul'. 'ijab kabul' is islam's way. just like a promise that all couple used to say. thats enough for the wedding . we both are moeslem. no one knows about our wedding. but in the islams way, father of the bride should know, so he must know, and thats what we do. my father do know. just him, no others. include my mom, his parents neither.

thats funny. because after marriage. i have no desire to making 'our activity'. i should say this, i married him just because an accident. yeah. our marriage is MBA (Marriage By Accident). I am not a single anymore. no one know that. and i can feel him, that he doesnt love me. he never love me. our marriage just for reveal my status. hey.. hey, we are in indonesia. and status is really important.

its not a week yet and i have made decision. you know? we almost getting divorce. ow god. i start to hate him. i am hurting.